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Thursday, January 27, 2005

so i turned a new leaf..???

well well ..if u knew me as a girl who abhors mornings and exercise in any form.. u would be surprised to see me go for a brisk walk early in the morning after a glass of lemon and honey..
after the walk comes the newspaper browsing and then the milk... and then bath... and rushing to catch the shuttle...
so i have turned into a new leaf.. but this does seem good!!! after a while i wud get used to getting up early and it def is not so bad u knw.. to watch the birds chirp and see the sun shyly making its way thro the crowds... its jus u and nature and love these early mornings!!!
it had rained yesterday i guess.. not a heavy downpour but intermitent rainning.. and i cud see the trees have had their bath.. they were smiling down with their new dresses on...isn't this a great feelin early in the morning!!! oh well it is!!!!
change is always good.. and if its for the better..what else can u ask for???

who are u??

yesterday was republic day...i was listening to radio city and there was this question abt whats the difference between independance and republic day..c'mon people can't be that ignorant or can they? interestingly, i read the hindy editorial only to find that the grandson of the queen of england dressed as a Nazi officer on the 'holocaust' day.. man are we gettin anywhere at all....???
we are supposed to be in the technology era and we cudn't predict the tsunami.. and the indian meteorological dept says they dint have the technology..well u gotta blame it on something right?? if u ask me i have a feeling we are stepping backwards than moving forward!!!
the talk of the day is linux, Q3 results.. padmashri awardees.. man din't anyone think of the common man at all?
When i saw swades i was amazed with the directors line of thinkin'.. and the movie cudn't have released at a more approppriate time!! with so many indians flying back and forth like its nobody's business.. here is a man who's making an honest attempt to make u think for a moment.. y are u rattling back and forth? y are u living oceans apare? y make more money when u can't be beside ur loved ones? is this freedom? quick money? isn't there a subtle message in this movie that is worth a thought?
well yes... i guess most people now claim an onsite assignment as a status symbol or a money spinner or an edge in the matrimonial column... well isn't there a life beyond all this?
when u look back over the years that rolled past u..don't u think u shd have done something more than jus typing furiously on the keyboard.. its TRUE.. everybody has to make a living.. and everybody needs a money.. gone are the days when u don't get a job that suits ur profile.. honestly i consider that gibberish.. ur just not lookin at things the right way.. after all..
"Winners don't do different things... they do things differently"
thats precisely the reason i liked 'ayutha ezuthu' also.. and there was this talk abt having all MBA graduates go thro' two year of politics.. personally i think that's the brightest idea i've ever heard.. imagine an all educated governance.. can u ask for anything more????
was it yet another day yesterday?? it was REPUBLIC day... and am not saying don't leave india and start flying elsewhere..am sure u can be an Indian living in australia... but are u really that??
or u a mixed breed?
Religion and culture should discipline u..after all, if religion wasn't there, there wouldn't be a way of living.. but one is not superior to another!!! and if there isn't culture then there is no discipline..but there isn't a best culture .. u can take the best of both and still live life..
but deep down.. who are u??
I beleive in Waters running deep.. rather than shallow ... so to speak.. everybody out there.. think abt it.. are u really what u thing u are? or are u fooling urself???

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

The Perfect Evening!!!

Every time i rush to my bus from office i yearn for this perfect evening......

Prepare a nice dinner.. not very elaborate but just enough to suffice the appetite...
have a long refreshing shower.. bubble bath if the luxury permits.. with all the aroma effects.. Wear something light and comfortable...
settle in the couch with a nice book and some hot beverage... read the book till night falls.. with some soft music in the background... have a nice dinner..
go for a stroll... where u can feel the breeze in ur hair... ur whole body getting bathed with the moonlight... lie down on ur back.. gazing at the stars and trying to make patterns..
get back and settle in the bed with soft music and the windows open letting the moonlight and the breeze filter in... fluffy pillows and let sleep take over u... no silly thoughts, no strict deadlines, no relationships to worry abt.. jus the connection between u and urself.... dats my night.. GOODNIGHT!!! SWEET DREAMS!!!

Breaking Point!!!!

There are times when u reach the limits...all u want to do is to shut down this stupid monitor and rest for a while.. get some good sleep, read a good book.. have a casual stroll, feel the breeze in ur face and run ur fingers thro' ur not-so long strands!!!! well i did some of these but there was still this unsettling feeling in me.. something was troubling me.. for a few days now.. there's this restlessness abt mt.. call it mid-life crisis or mixed emotions.. whatever the reasons be ..i can't seem to make peace with myself...!!!
As far as my memory goes i have always made decisions i have been proud off... never had a second thought abt them.. its only now i realise there are some shortcomings.. i actually don't care abt the decision itself.. i care more abt the people who get affected by the decision..something like if i decide this way wud that person be happy and if i decide this way would this person be happy.. i've actually not thought abt myself.. and i guess that's the greatest shortcomings of it all.. u have to think abt urself before u even give others a thought!!! otherwise u'll end up like me wondering why u made this decision and why ur not happy abt it anymore...
atleast with great resolve if can remove the bearings of the decisions that din't go quite right.. then i'll have a happy and delightful life!!!!

Sunday, January 23, 2005

whenever i blog

should a blog be a refleciton of a thought process? or should it be those strange thoughts u think u have? should it be the wildest dreams? should it be those erratic nonsense? should it be what u saw some day somewhere and it keeps lingering in ur mind? those fond memories, lazy times, happy moments? what the hell is a blog?
whenever i blog its goin to be some of this and something else too.....